Hi Guys!!!

Just thought I'd let y'all know where I'm at these days...

At my new account >>>

Hope all's good wih everyone and hopefully see you round dA on my new account

~X~

jesi,

xox

I'm oh so happy!

TAFE application went in yesterday, finger's crossed come January!

The weather has been bleak to say the least but it hasn't bothered me so far

My cousin got her traineeship so we're celebraing tonight!!!

hmmm... i thinks that bout it...

oh yeah and i miss my photography hopefully i'll buy a new camera and a computer soon!

much love

~ jesi




Step Up

Can’t quit
Won’t give up
Fall back
Stay straight
Move forward
Don’t quit
Step up
Chance fate
Keep going
Be strong
Stay on top
Don’t wait
Carry on dancing
Don’t delay
This your dream
Don’t hesitate.




~If you want my heart please don’t break it, And if you say you care please don’t lie, I am no one’s until it’s proven, And when I’ve found someone this will be gone.~

My one wish no one knows
A secret lust that will never be
Yearning for something I can’t have
I’ll never speak of my emotions
I dream of the day he’ll come to me
But I don't know if that day won’t come
I’m forever grateful for the friendship
But that can’t stop my desire for more
Maybe one day he’ll come to me
Maybe he feels the same way to
I don't want to risk getting hurt
So I guess I’ll just live in wonder.

~jesi

Silently she sits on the balcony sobs into the wind
Feeling like the weight of the world is on her shoulders
The emotion of guilt is overwhelming
Not even a chocolate milkshake could cheer her up
She lights another cigarette and stares at the lake
Why does this decision have to be so god damn hard?
Her break has been so peaceful, now she can’t leave.
She has a place here, she has a place there,
Where she chooses to stay is her decision
But fears of being disloyal to her family
Isn’t it her duty to look after and be there for them?
She’s their daughter, she’s their sister,
The right thing to do would to be go home… isn’t it?
So much confusion, so much pain, so much guilt
How much more can she take?

~jesi

I woke up this morning to a clear blue sky and a gentle breeze coming through the outside bedroom door. Now I’m upstairs sitting at an old weathered table on a balcony off to the side of the house. I’m surrounded by houses but at the same time I’m secluded. I can see the lake from where I am and the air smells of the ocean and stale smokes from the ashtray in the corner.
The breeze has picked up a little, brushing seductively across my skin as it passes by me. Every now and then a small ball of brown fluff comes bounding at the side door and playfully licks my toes, almost making me fall off my chair from the tickling sensation. Afterwards he’ll paw at my leg and I’ll lift him onto my lap so he can watch the screen as I write.
At irregular intervals, a trail of floral perfume wafts through the open side door as my cousin walks in and out of the kitchen. The gentle silence is soothing and I’m so relaxed that it feels like an out of body experience.

~jesi